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10/26/2004 7:24:33 PM
ah time to update the journal again. I'm pretty ok now. Sometimes i think if, what if I don't have standards. Like if i were to just do whatever I like with whoever I want and not care about it. Would that make things better? I'm not sure. Seems like it would make me momentarily happy. There was this guy I was talking to a while back named Will. Very nice guy seemed unique. He's still in the transition of knowing he's gay and coming out. Well when i got to know him he gave me the impressed that he liked me, and I liked him too. Well then when I asked him about it, he said that he just wanted to be friends right now, because he was still new to the whole thing of being gay, and he wasn't ready to do anything serious. The thing that gets me is that well, i asked him if he liked me and he said, N A way, so i'm like In a way? either you do or you don't and he was like well i do but as a friend. And i was like oh. He just not straight foward about what he wants, and it's upsetting me to the point of "why do i even try?". I mean why would you give someone the impression that you liked them and then say "oh well I like you as a friend "in a way"." Men are just so stupid when it comes to their emotions. Thats why i feel like, why should i have high morals if everyone else doesn't....not sure.. anyways gonna watch a movie and study for a while, bye
10/20/2004 11:47:55 PM
not really happy right now, rose died yesterday.....
10/14/2004 11:04:02 PM
ah what to write what to write? nothing much has been going on just school mainly. Been tired lately. Oh yea monday had to take shaun to the hospital, he woke up with his stomach hurting him so we thought it was maybe his back problems since his back was hurting to. He went the the chiropractor and then i get a call from his mom telling me to pick him up cause his stomach is really bothering him to where it hurts badly. So i got there he's in his car crying his eyes out saying he's in so much pain. I take him to the emergency room, his mom shows up, and they tell us it's his goldbladder(lol no idea how to spell it, but you get the point) and that it has stones in it. So he has to take medicine to break them up, or make the pain subside now. He's doing ok.....just hurt him from time to time and he has to watch what he eats from now on. Rose is so cute, she sleeps on my lap all day and greets me everytime i get home. Me love ya rosie! can't wait for next weeek. soooooooooo many movie to see. Can't wait. Hopefully i'll get to hang out with will this weekend. He's sooo cool and sweet +) well anyways I better get going Jack is making no sense on will and grace and i've gotta laugh somemore hehe, bye journal +P
10/7/2004 2:06:52 PM
ok finally get a chance to write in this thing. I'm soooooooooooo tired right now. Not sure why, but i do know that my class scheduals are kicking my ass. Working so hard on at least getting some decent grades so i can continue my learning, and keep my financial aid. Rose is such a cutie. I'm looking down at her sitting in my lap right now and thinking, "who taunt you to do that you funny kitty?" hehehehe. I can never get her off me when she wants attention. Anyways, i'm suppose to go to Midnight at Gracson's street with my friend Will. He says it's a very scary haunted house and so does shaun. We'll have to see about that. hmmm what else to report? Oh yea, something very very nice. There is this girl..named Utada. This girl that did an english albumn here in the states, but it wasn' released, so some person in japan heard it and wanted her to do a japanese version for japan and sing there. So she did, and they liked her alot and then someone back in the US started to hear about her and was like "why don't you come here and do the english one again" lol So she does her albumn and most of her songs are very melodic. But the thing that really attracted me to her is that #1 the girl can sing, Love singers with a good voice. #2 Very melodic mid western type music, maybe heard in japan or china AND last but not least #3 she worked with TIMBALAND to do most of her tracks on her CD, he's my favorite music producer because he doesn't just do one type of music style, he can do many many types and knows what beautiful can sound like. Anyways, i'm going to get back on lineage and finish up some stuff. ttyl bye bey!
P.s. almost forgot, the name of the song that i REAAAAAAAAAAALLLY love by her is called "Exodus 04" very very sweet song that you should listen to. bye bey!
10/2/2004 10:48:48 PM
Just a short entry, lol Hiya again jourrrrrnal my dear friieeeeeend. I'll talk about some stuff later, all in all i'm alittle surprised kevin decided to speak to me. Thought he either didn't like me anymore, didn't care to talk to me anymore, hated me. etc. For whatever reason who knows. i'm just glad that he at least said hi to me again. anyways i'm gonna watch some movies with the folks get back to you laterz about what life has been in store for me journal, bye bey!
Sincerly,
Warren
4/29/2004 8:23:45 AM
ah Been a long time since I wrote in here, mainly because I haven't had time to write in it due to working so friggin much at Home Depot. Hmm What to say? Well I guess I should start off saying, things are pretty much falling into place, because i'm finally getting my life in order, and have control of most of it. The Money,the bills, the people, i'm able to do the things i want now. I'm going home this weekend on Friday to finally see my parents. Thank god!!! I haven't seen them like in forever. I really miss everyone, actually I miss alot of people, but not going to get into that right now. Me and Shaun are suppose to be going out today to get the games we planned on getting, because EBgames.com kept messing up my order or something. Damn them lol. I do hope this cold is going away soon. I'm drinking plenty of O.J. (without the knife) so it should be alright now. Josh wants me to visit him something in the next two months. Even offering to fly me out and back. Wow, but can I really trust him to be good and not go back and forth through his little "Dr. Jeckle and Mr. Hide" stage. Hate when he turns into that. I actually need some help with this website for my clan, The Blue Dragon Armada. I'd like the professional help of a pro that knows a thing about websites, so Kevin if your reading this, I NEED YOUR HELP KEVY!!! Pweeeeze!!! hehe Btw I dunno, about kevin, it may just be because we haven't had a chance to talk much, but it just seems like I don't know much about him anymore. It's like he keeps alot to himself or doesn't tell me much. I mean when he did come over here to SA he did tell me some things that did surprise me, because he didn't tell me them before and I was like.....ok...why you telling me this now, and didn't tell me before? I dunno I guess I just feel left out, not saying I HAVE to be included in his life, just well you know, most times it's like "well what's going on in your mind?" and then the person doesn't say anything to you personally, but tells other people, so you kinda feel left out as in "why am I excluded?". Just like how i've been trying for months and months, to get into why josh does things he does, and it's only now that i'm getting through to him, since things didn't work out how he planned. Anyways, shaun will be home soon, and I gotta get dressed, so till later dear journal Later Dayz
2/6/2004 4:01:17 AM
Let's see....what to say what to say. Not much to say right now, i find that things turn out differently especially if you handle them in the right way. Many times if someone spits in your face and you feel like fighting back, not fighting them will result in some time in the future they get arrested. I would call that Karma. I find that often times when you haven't acted towards others like they would want you to, things change. I find that with my ex, i didn't act the way he wanted, and a few months down the line, he wants me back and says how foolish he was for things he did and didn't realize. I don't entirely know what to say to that. And when it comes to things I do...who knows what I might choose. But I do know that it will be sometime before I make any big decisions and when I do, I will know it to be the right one because I choose it with the best consideration my heart and mind can put together. I'm happy where i'm at right now, not completely in my heart, but in my mind body, and soul.
12/8/2003 9:06:17 PM
oh yea P.S. How many other people can see MY journal???
12/8/2003 9:03:05 PM
For one thing kevin, if you going to talk about me, please do so to my face and acknowledge me. Another thing is I did not know that the thing was on public instead of private till it was too late, and of course there is no way for me to change it. I'm sorry for that. Like I said, half of what I said was said out of anger half out of truth. If I don't have a right to write what is pissing me off then why do I even write in the journal?
12/6/2003 11:43:35 PM
ugh, ok that fucking pissed me off I write a big long thing about my day and this damn thing erases it.....BRB
12/2/2003 10:58:56 PM
ah well I guess I should write in you huh? Lets see, i'm sitting at home right now and just finished Legacy of Kain: Defiance. It was a great game, I loved all the Soul Reaver and Legacy of Kain epic video games, it was like playing a book. The plot the characters the story concept was all so original and very detailed, even had great actors doing voice overs. Sad to see it all end the way it did, but it was great none the less.....lets see I was suppose to do my paper for english, but well...I'm just papered out!!! I've been writing papers nearly every week in that class and i'm just tired of it. So much so that I give up on this last one. I cannot physically write it although I can be a pawn in writing it. I dunno maybe it's me just being tired, but I feel like something is missing. Shaun went to go spend time with a friend of his, and then babysit afterwords.....I was also remeniscing on past events and how comfortable I am in what I do. ok ok wait let me get my thoughts ordered and I'll write it better when I get back ttfn
12/2/2003 11:42:11 AM
This is a test, i am making because of the color shift, i hope you like it warren. also if you click on edit you can see the code i used to make the breaks
that is a line break and
is two line breaks. If you wanted to insert a link you could type in Imagin's Home Page and for bold you would just use this This is bold now and not it is not.
Kevin Updates were made to the input of the journal on 11-19-2004
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